Ok So I meet this guy right? He is everything to me, let me tell ya. He loves God, chivalrous as all get out, and treats Me like I’m the best thing since sliced bread. No matter how much I criticize myself and speak about my short comings, he sees nothing but beauty. I talk about my pain and he sees nothing but growth. We learn each other, get close to each other, then he pops the big question. I cry, scream, and say yes as I jump up and down like a kid in a candy store. We get married and have the most beautiful outdoor spring wedding on this side of the DFW. A year later we have kids. 3 to be exact. And once we have our life put together, we live Happily. Ever. After…….NOT Man doesn’t that story sound so good?! I almost convinced myself that it was true. I mean that was the perfect love story right? Right! I had a plan yall. The story above is what I wanted for myself. I said by the age of 25 I would have this right now! Let me be real for a second and tell you my current situation. I am 26 years old, I have been single for 2.5 years, I have no children, and I work in a field that I love but I am JUST now starting to get on my feet. Hunny, I’m no where near where I thought I would be by this age.
As I planned out my entire life, God told me, “Hey! Bridge, I’m in control. Things will go how I plan for them to go. You don’t run nothing”.
Why is it so easy to take matters into our own hands when, we are suppose to know and trust in God’s plan and will. He made it quite clear, “Trust in God and lean not into your own understanding.”..but time and time again, we find ourselves “doing our own thing”. Well at least, I know that I have that bad. I know that more than anything I need to step back and watch God work. Trust that he is going to provide me with everything I NEED in a future husband and just in my life period. But it will all be done on HIS time and not MINE. I could ramble and go on and on about what I want, but I’m deciding at this moment to trust. Not only trust, but to believe that God will take care of me.
I’m sure that I’m not the only person that struggles with this, so of course, as I minister to you, I minister to myself.